well it has been 3 months shy of a year since my last post. WOW- thats crazy. and to think where i was then compared to where i am now… let me speed everyone up to exactly where i am now.
i came home from the mission field to pay off school loans. the sooner i got out of debt the sooner i could go back to the mission field. i wanted to do it as fast as possible. i had a slow summer. i worked, but i also too many vacations- just trying to pay catch up with everyone in America. well fall came and almost went before i found a full- time job, but praise the Lord i have one. [[i work at a preschool. i love it. i have worked at this same center a couple times before. there are many opportunities for me there, and i am excited to see where it takes me, but what really matters now is that it is paying the bills.]] i also dating a great guy who goes by the name of Trae. [[we met through a friend of mine that goes to my church.]] i am also serving as a youth leader in my church, im on the missionary committee and i help with a ministry called Bridge Builders. not to mention that i have started selling personalized items through a company called INITIALS-inc. in order to make a little extra money. all of these times on top of family and friends keep me very busy.
sadly i have lost the vision of my purpose for coming home to begin with.
i quickly began loving my pay checks. i began using the extra money on meaningless things instead of putting to towards loans. my calendar has became slam packed with worldly events and i lost sight of ministry. life became routine and normal… clockwork. you hear about this all the time- people say "life goes on. trials come our way. and we forget, we give up, we become careless in our walk. well this is exactly what i found myself saying the other night on my face before God. my life goes on. trials came my way. and i forgot, i gave up, and i became careless in my walk.
then i was reminded that God has put me on this earth to fulfill a purpose. a purpose He has given me- to bring Him glory. oh how i have failed. i have lost sight of my purpose. i have been living for myself, with my own personal goals.
but the biggest blessing is forgiveness. repent, turn and live.
please be in prayer for me as i begin this rededication to live a my life in obedience to Christ in my LIFESTYLE!
